*I open my eyes and turn to the other side of the bed to reach for my glasses and check the time.

It’s 6:05 in the morning.

I’ve barely woken up, and a conflict strikes me.

The mind is eager to grab the phone and get lost in emails, news, and social media, while my Self longs for deep silence to feel grounded and alive.

My inner crowd is waking up…

I put the phone down and arrange the pillow at the head end of the bed, leaning in to support my back.

My body feels comfy...

*I close my eyes.

With my legs crossed and warmed by the duvet, I’m ready to fall.

I’m ready to see the multiple layers of thoughts, desires, and daily plans emerging, fighting, and competing for my attention before they fade away with each breath I take.

— “Is there any bread left for breakfast?”

— “How many words do I need to translate?”

— “Will it be hot today?”

— “I need to pay my credit card, text my sister, buy toothpaste, and— Shhhh! Let them go. Let them ALL go!

— Stay in the present.

— Watch your body.

— Feel your heart.

— And breathe.

— Breathe!

The monkey mind resists,

pushing thought after thought,

wish after wish,

fear after fear,

trying to convince me that each one

is worthy and real.

*I accept and watch the hustle without concern.

I’ve seen this before, a thousand times.

The mind won’t let go. It can’t let go!

It can’t lose its relevance or power over me.

Me? Who is me?

That thing watching all the fuss from behind, urging for silence, claiming its presence—that’s the real me.

The real me…

— Now breathe and accept the fall.

I

breathe

and

breathe

and

breathe,

deepening

my

senses,

piercing

every

thought,

merging with

the

silence.

The real me steps up...

*The monkey mind gives in.

*Here I am,

grounded in my body,

taken by my soul.

The silence inside expands the noises outside.

I hear them

all loud.

I let them

all in.

The buzzing sound of cars down the street.

The sharp singing of birds in the trees.

*Here I am.

I let them all in.

I feel them all go

Far Awaaay…

Passing through my bones,

leaving through my skin.

*Here

I am.

This is

me!

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