
My healing journey kicked off in mid-2015, and what a ride it has been!
Before that, my life felt like a whirlwind.
I was so caught up in everything happening around me that I didn’t let myself take a moment to look inward.
I was always hopping from one project or goal to the next, constantly creating new challenges that I thought I absolutely had to conquer.
On the outside, I looked pretty successful:
- I worked for the largest patent office in Latin America as a translator.
- I traveled to several countries.
- I was married and enjoying a very comfortable life.
But on the inside,
I was anything but okay.
Without a
true connection to myself,
I was anxious, insecure,
and felt
completely
lost.
I felt a deep sense of emptiness that I tried to fill with books, travel, and all sorts of distractions.
For over a decade, this facade held up—until 2015, when everything began to unravel.
It felt like I was watching
my carefully built
sandcastle
wash
away.
The more I tried
to hold it together,
the more
difficult
it
became.

By August 2015, I felt like I had hit rock bottom.
I tried therapy for the first time, but the experience was disappointing; I felt worse than before and decided to stop.
Shortly after, I went through a divorce and moved back to Brazil, my home country.
In March 2016, I finally made the choice to prioritize my well-being.
I packed my bags and moved to São Paulo—my hometown is Rio de Janeiro, and I didn’t know a single person in the city!
There, I embarked on a journey
of self-discovery,
healing,
and
self-acceptance.
Without a clear roadmap or mentor, I decided to trust my intuition to guide me.
I made some great choices but also stumbled a few times along the way. I faced many existential crises and often felt quite lonely.
In my first year in São Paulo, I found myself friendless and grappling with my emotions, often thinking about giving up.
One day, I would feel fine;
the next, something
would rock me
to my
core.
It was like being on a treadmill,
where I was taking
one step forward
and two
steps
back.
Looking back now, I’m amazed at the strength I found to get through that tough time.
Ten years later, 2025, I can proudly say I’m grateful for every book, video, course, and person I encountered during that period.

Even on my darkest days, something within me kept pushing me forward.
Thanks to meditation, which I started in 2015, I was able to identify and heal the various issues I faced, including:
- Anxiety
- Paranoia
- Hyperactivity
- PTSD
- Insomnia
And so many others that I can’t even recall anymore.
After some time away, I decided to give therapy another shot to tackle my childhood traumas and recent struggles.
This time around, I found an amazing therapist who guided me without retraumatizing me, and that made a world of difference.
Instead of feeling worse, I started improving month after month, gradually growing more confident and self-aware.
My therapist taught me how to:
- Name my feelings
- Embrace and safely release my anger and pain
- Identify and express my needs
And, most importantly, to feel comfortable being myself.
I’ve finally stopped the cycle of taking one step forward and two steps back.
Now, life flows more smoothly.
Sure, it still has its twists and turns, but I’ve learned to navigate it with a sense of calm rather than feeling overwhelmed all the time.
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Been there. So glad you’ve found a path to healing, Aline.
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Thank you, Mitch! 🫠
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Kudos on your courage and finding a path forward Aline. My path has had many ups and downs too!
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Thank you! I guess everyone’s, right?
Life is never linear. Welcome to Soul & Suitcase!
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Yes, it’s never a straight shot!
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I wish it were though. 🥴
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Thank you so much for sharing your personal experience, Aline, it is very hard to continue forward in a positive direction when it seems so much is coming against you. I am still on my own personal journey, and it hasn’t been easy but now instead of pretending nothing is wrong, I talk about how I feel, realize my triggers and manage them and seek professional guidance/help. I used to think it was so wrong and vulnerable to talk about what things I was going through but now I know it is okay to talk about those things.
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It’s my pleasure, Beth. I share these details of my past experiences so that people like you can relate and feel motivated to seek healing and personal growth as well.
I’m sorry to hear about your struggles, Bet. I can only imagine how hard it must be for you.
But hang in there! Keep seeking help and supporting yourself no matter what. This difficult phase will pass eventually, as nothing lasts forever.
Sending you all my best wishes on your healing journey! ❤❤
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Appreciate that, Aline!
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❤❤❤
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